Day 5

It looks like I am falling into my bad old habits, last night guy was awesome and I did have a lot of fun, but there was no spark. My heart didn't skip it’s beat, not once thru out the evening, I would love to have him as a friend, but I don't think he would like it. I want to fall in love, not good old “he is so nice I will fall in love soon”. Never worked with me. In all the honesty I don’t believe it will happen this time. I hate to do it especially after giving him hope last night, but there is no other way around if I want to be happy. Sent him good old boring its not you its me message. I feel so bad.

What's with all the young boys??? Seriously are there no young girls around? Gimme a break. Been having nice chats to this guy we seem to have a lot in common, he is very nice but kind of boring? What do I want? Some crazy arsehole that will make it all fireworks, then leave me destroyed, I honestly don't know. I don't want good old “relationship” not at this point of time anyway, but if I fall in love I don't want it to be once a month thing if he is bored either. Grrrr

Here we go he seems ok, oh wants to meet today, oh will come from Brisbane. Mk. 4:30 at Grand. He isn't drinker at all. I wonder if he is on drugs, something strange about him. His eyes like his pupils are shaking when he looks away, never seen anything like it. There is definitely NO. Maybe he was a bit shy, but there was nothing about him that I liked. So no I am not going to see him again.

There is that guy we been chatting from day 1. I feel like there can be connection. He is funny, cheeky and very polite, freaks out when he goes cheeky and I don't answer right away and apologises. He is local but doesn't seem very eager to catch up. We see.

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